idlaxity
noun
Freedom due to powerlessness.
They say that with great power comes great responsibility. It doesn’t have to be great to be transformative. When I was too young for the world to let me do anything real, my idlaxity meant I had plenty of free time and a very relaxed existence - but also an unsatisfying one, with frequent bouts of yinchornado. Now I can scarcely rest for guilt over the ways I could be better spending my time, but overall my time is vastly better spent.